urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea Midwest Wasteland lashea 2008-12-05T19:27:47Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:95653 2008-12-05T19:27:47Z 2008-12-05T19:27:47Z i want something to feel passionate about.<br />i have settled into some sort of life i don't want.<br />maybe i want to travel and be awesome.<br />i want a fur coat and a spanish love affair.<br />i want to move away and move on from so much in my life.<br />i wish i had something meaningful to say.<br /><br />i wish i had some food, some time to myself, and someone to help me pack... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:95383 2008-08-18T15:49:00Z 2008-08-18T15:49:00Z Long time, no transcribing.<br /><br />My anniversary is coming up soon. I can't belive I have liked one person for longer than a few weeks. I am such a flake usually. i have school soon. I took summer classes which pretty much blew. I am starting my job as house manager next monday. wo hoo. I get to work with my lovely best friend Nick 3 of the 4 days a week that i will be working. I am pretty pumped to be only working 4 days a week. (seeing as I work 7 days a week now.)<br /><br />Life is life, my macbook is broken because I haven't had time or $ to fix it which, I hope will change this week. <br /><br />anyway, the library is fun and exciting (not really) so I am going to bounce (yeah I said bounce) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:94601 2008-02-27T02:31:29Z 2008-02-27T02:31:29Z Kanye West Hilary Clinton is being a meanie!<br />Obama is trying not to be rude but she is losing and it's starting to make her mean I don't like her!<br />I like him. He seems like a nice guy. Seriously, like, a really nice guy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:94388 2008-02-18T17:14:03Z 2008-02-18T17:14:03Z I was at this political rally and I was seeing Obama and it was weird because I was having a conversation with him then some one shot him and I held him in my arms and I was like, sobbing it was terrible. It was so sad.<br /><br />Anyway, I not feeling very well. wish me all the lick in the world! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:94091 2008-01-08T05:16:14Z 2008-01-08T05:16:14Z I went to Brian's the day after Christmas, he came here that Friday then he left last Thursday. I miss him sooooo much. I love him a whole bunch. <br /><br />I got my hair done today. It's really cute.<br /><br />I am so effing bored. <br /><br />I gotta figure out when I can go visit the boy... Hopefully soon. It's not even been a week but I miss the hell out of him. <br /><br />I gotta buy apartment shit tomorrow so things dont look terrible for when Casey comes. I an going to do it all tomorrow! Mind over matter...<br /><br />Time for pretending to sleep... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:93796 2007-12-25T05:17:59Z 2007-12-25T05:17:59Z Change of plans<br />my lil brother had to have surgery.<br />my dad is not spending Christmas with me.<br />i will be alone for Christmas...<br />sigh. i have movies and chinese.<br />so, there ya go...<br /><br />happy holidays... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:93682 2007-12-23T20:58:46Z 2007-12-23T20:58:46Z cool kids- (commercials are on) i will be pretty much be with my boyfriend.<br /><br />i arrive at 4:00 pm to Grand Rapids.<br /><br />i am spending the night at my dad's house for the first time in my life. i know, wierd. it only took 20 some odd years.<br /><br />i got some cheap furniture woot times ten. I think i may steal the couch otta my granny's basement. I need to find a table and chairs still. we need to get pots and whatnot. soo much to buy still. ugh.<br /><br />I don't want to think about it anymore. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:93238 2007-12-16T04:11:48Z 2007-12-16T04:11:48Z I can't wait for the new one to begin. I am ready to graduate. I looked at "teacher clothes" and it made me excited. I am very excited about the prospect of actually teaching. I love math. I really do. I like english too (my other concentration) but I mostly just love love love numbers. I love calculators and graphing and I am really excited to start my new life. I am going to be the best math teacher I can be. obviously I will have the best frigging bulletin boards ever. I am just soo excited! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:93042 2007-12-14T17:11:56Z 2007-12-14T17:11:56Z Apartment= 7 days away.<br />Christmas= 11 days away.<br />Brian time= 12 days away.<br />Time plz past faster.<br /><br />i have to talk to my boss today about my hours.<br />let's hope i don't get fired. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:92722 2007-12-09T21:53:54Z 2007-12-09T21:53:54Z I have friends, good ones that make me laugh. <br />The most amazing boyfriend in the whole world. <br />A job that doesn't make me want to kill myself.<br />A new awesome place to live and a cool roomie.<br />100% chance of having an awesome life. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:92577 2007-12-08T02:44:49Z 2007-12-08T02:44:49Z I signed the lease! I am the proud renter of a bomb ass apt. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:92330 2007-12-06T02:48:43Z 2007-12-06T02:48:43Z I found a ballin new roommate and a ballin new apt.<br />things are looking up.<br />life will be good. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:91930 2007-11-22T16:57:53Z 2007-11-22T16:57:53Z I miss working out<br />I miss having a life<br />I miss my future<br />I miss my past<br />I miss inspiration<br />I miss Jesus<br />I miss hating him<br />I miss everything<br /><br />I am lost.<br />So very lost. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:91793 2007-11-20T04:54:08Z 2007-11-20T04:54:08Z doctor's apt tomorrow.<br />maybe he can fix my brain.<br />maybe he can help my heart hurt less. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:91508 2007-11-19T03:18:55Z 2007-11-19T03:18:55Z simon and garfunkel i feel like crap. <br />i feel like i am alone. <br />i am alone.<br /><br />i wish i could communicate.<br />i wish you could too.<br />i hate this feeling.<br />i hate calling you sometimes.<br />i love you all the time. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:91054 2007-11-07T05:21:17Z 2007-11-07T05:21:17Z ilovehimsomuch.<br />iwanttobehappier.<br />i will be.<br />maybe all i need is sleep. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:90636 2007-11-02T22:10:06Z 2007-11-02T22:10:06Z i got a new bra! one that fits me.<br />new bra. new start!<br />yay urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:90458 2007-11-02T14:33:01Z 2007-11-02T14:33:01Z rocket summer- <3 i am lame i feel totally indifferent.<br />my whole life is in a period of transition.<br />my current home is getting a new roof.<br />this wakes me up at 8 am and is annoying.<br />i hope that i will be in my very own place soon.<br />a matter of weeks actually. so fucking weird.<br />i will be with the love of my life in a week.<br />to see him will give me some much needed sanity.<br />my grades are on the cusp of being terrible and great.<br />lol. i have some lies to tell and some tests to make up.<br />i am on the brink of a new fucking major too.<br /><br />i want to be creative. so so much. i want to move!!!<br />i miss my sewing machine. i miss being alone. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:90245 2007-11-01T03:36:28Z 2007-11-01T03:36:28Z herman's hermits my bf taught me about history on the phone...<br />it made me love him even more. so nerdy...<br />i am going to teach him some math to make up for it.<br />maybe when i am a teacher i'll give him hw too. <br /><br />life is so fucking wonderful and yet it tortures me.<br /><br />like, here is the one you want to be with.<br />here is the best and the cutest boy.<br />the one that you are in love with.<br />all the love and support you dreamed of.<br />oh, and by the way...<br />here is 300 miles to separate you.<br /><br />maybe it's for the best...<br />if we can make it through this,<br />i think we can make the long haul.<br /><br />i want the houseboat<br />i want the water dog<br />i want the boyfriend<br />i want milford! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:89991 2007-10-24T02:54:45Z 2007-10-24T02:54:45Z Today you felt so far away.<br />I just want someone to cuddle me.<br />I ruined my back, so i cant work out.<br />I just want to be with my boyfriend now.<br />I feel like hell, emotionally and physically. <br />I think that I'm going to go cry myself to sleep. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:89686 2007-10-15T04:27:05Z 2007-10-15T04:27:05Z too bad its over.<br />but there will be many more. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:89352 2007-10-14T02:32:27Z 2007-10-14T02:32:27Z wii time and i fell in love all over again with my boyfriend. i loved the zoo. i love the way my boyfriend looks at me. it makes me want to smile and cry at the same time. he is probably too good for me. but, i hope that i can be good to him and be worthy of his love. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:89342 2007-10-12T14:43:00Z 2007-10-12T14:43:00Z Beyonce! my boyfriend, even if i hate long drives. today i get to meet his brother. i hope i don't call him paul, or tim... anyway, time to get dressed, brian will be back from class soon. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:88939 2007-10-11T05:11:21Z 2007-10-11T05:11:21Z got my hair done: awesome<br />going to see my bf tomorrow: more awesome.<br />it's cold and i want to cuddle and drink cocoa.<br />and make love love love and listen to death from above above above. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lashea:88657 2007-10-09T03:30:20Z 2007-10-09T03:30:20Z Andrew Bird!!!!! you laugh and joke and realize what you'd be giving up. so you dig your feet in and hold on tighter and you fight for what you want, even if you're fighting yourself. you just gotta keep loving, even when it's hard. what's life without someone to love you more than you thought was possible? i can't remember, and i don't want to.