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[Dec. 5th, 2008|02:24 pm] |
i want something to feel passionate about.
i have settled into some sort of life i don't want.
maybe i want to travel and be awesome.
i want a fur coat and a spanish love affair.
i want to move away and move on from so much in my life.
i wish i had something meaningful to say.
i wish i had some food, some time to myself, and someone to help me pack... |
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| Ell Jay! |
[Aug. 18th, 2008|10:49 am] |
Long time, no transcribing.
My anniversary is coming up soon. I can't belive I have liked one person for longer than a few weeks. I am such a flake usually. i have school soon. I took summer classes which pretty much blew. I am starting my job as house manager next monday. wo hoo. I get to work with my lovely best friend Nick 3 of the 4 days a week that i will be working. I am pretty pumped to be only working 4 days a week. (seeing as I work 7 days a week now.)
Life is life, my macbook is broken because I haven't had time or $ to fix it which, I hope will change this week.
anyway, the library is fun and exciting (not really) so I am going to bounce (yeah I said bounce) |
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[Feb. 26th, 2008|09:29 pm] |
Hilary Clinton is being a meanie!
Obama is trying not to be rude but she is losing and it's starting to make her mean I don't like her!
I like him. He seems like a nice guy. Seriously, like, a really nice guy. |
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| So I had the worst nightmare |
[Feb. 18th, 2008|12:09 pm] |
I was at this political rally and I was seeing Obama and it was weird because I was having a conversation with him then some one shot him and I held him in my arms and I was like, sobbing it was terrible. It was so sad.
Anyway, I not feeling very well. wish me all the lick in the world! |
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| update... |
[Jan. 8th, 2008|12:07 am] |
I went to Brian's the day after Christmas, he came here that Friday then he left last Thursday. I miss him sooooo much. I love him a whole bunch.
I got my hair done today. It's really cute.
I am so effing bored.
I gotta figure out when I can go visit the boy... Hopefully soon. It's not even been a week but I miss the hell out of him.
I gotta buy apartment shit tomorrow so things dont look terrible for when Casey comes. I an going to do it all tomorrow! Mind over matter...
Time for pretending to sleep... |
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| so, |
[Dec. 24th, 2007|11:56 pm] |
Change of plans
my lil brother had to have surgery.
my dad is not spending Christmas with me.
i will be alone for Christmas...
sigh. i have movies and chinese.
so, there ya go...
happy holidays... |
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| 72 hours from now... |
[Dec. 23rd, 2007|03:49 pm] |
| [ | soundtrack |
| | cool kids- (commercials are on) | ] |
i will be pretty much be with my boyfriend.
i arrive at 4:00 pm to Grand Rapids.
i am spending the night at my dad's house for the first time in my life. i know, wierd. it only took 20 some odd years.
i got some cheap furniture woot times ten. I think i may steal the couch otta my granny's basement. I need to find a table and chairs still. we need to get pots and whatnot. soo much to buy still. ugh.
I don't want to think about it anymore. |
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| As much as I hated last semester... |
[Dec. 15th, 2007|11:07 pm] |
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I can't wait for the new one to begin. I am ready to graduate. I looked at "teacher clothes" and it made me excited. I am very excited about the prospect of actually teaching. I love math. I really do. I like english too (my other concentration) but I mostly just love love love numbers. I love calculators and graphing and I am really excited to start my new life. I am going to be the best math teacher I can be. obviously I will have the best frigging bulletin boards ever. I am just soo excited! |
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| Gah! |
[Dec. 14th, 2007|12:10 pm] |
Apartment= 7 days away.
Christmas= 11 days away.
Brian time= 12 days away.
Time plz past faster.
i have to talk to my boss today about my hours.
let's hope i don't get fired. |
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| I realize |
[Dec. 9th, 2007|04:49 pm] |
I have friends, good ones that make me laugh.
The most amazing boyfriend in the whole world.
A job that doesn't make me want to kill myself.
A new awesome place to live and a cool roomie.
100% chance of having an awesome life. |
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| Yay |
[Dec. 7th, 2007|09:44 pm] |
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I signed the lease! I am the proud renter of a bomb ass apt. |
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| I am excited |
[Dec. 5th, 2007|09:39 pm] |
I found a ballin new roommate and a ballin new apt.
things are looking up.
life will be good. |
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| i miss my boyfriend. |
[Nov. 22nd, 2007|11:55 am] |
I miss working out
I miss having a life
I miss my future
I miss my past
I miss inspiration
I miss Jesus
I miss hating him
I miss everything
I am lost.
So very lost. |
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| i feel like i could die |
[Nov. 19th, 2007|11:44 pm] |
doctor's apt tomorrow.
maybe he can fix my brain.
maybe he can help my heart hurt less. |
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| gah. |
[Nov. 18th, 2007|10:10 pm] |
| [ | soundtrack |
| | simon and garfunkel | ] |
i feel like crap.
i feel like i am alone.
i am alone.
i wish i could communicate.
i wish you could too.
i hate this feeling.
i hate calling you sometimes.
i love you all the time. |
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| iwishiwasnormal. |
[Nov. 7th, 2007|12:18 am] |
ilovehimsomuch.
iwanttobehappier.
i will be.
maybe all i need is sleep. |
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| i got a new bra! |
[Nov. 2nd, 2007|06:09 pm] |
i got a new bra! one that fits me.
new bra. new start!
yay |
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| so, today... |
[Nov. 2nd, 2007|10:17 am] |
| [ | locale |
| | hells. | ] |
| [ | soundtrack |
| | rocket summer- <3 i am lame | ] |
i feel totally indifferent.
my whole life is in a period of transition.
my current home is getting a new roof.
this wakes me up at 8 am and is annoying.
i hope that i will be in my very own place soon.
a matter of weeks actually. so fucking weird.
i will be with the love of my life in a week.
to see him will give me some much needed sanity.
my grades are on the cusp of being terrible and great.
lol. i have some lies to tell and some tests to make up.
i am on the brink of a new fucking major too.
i want to be creative. so so much. i want to move!!!
i miss my sewing machine. i miss being alone. |
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| man oh man. |
[Oct. 31st, 2007|11:14 pm] |
| [ | soundtrack |
| | herman's hermits | ] |
my bf taught me about history on the phone...
it made me love him even more. so nerdy...
i am going to teach him some math to make up for it.
maybe when i am a teacher i'll give him hw too.
life is so fucking wonderful and yet it tortures me.
like, here is the one you want to be with.
here is the best and the cutest boy.
the one that you are in love with.
all the love and support you dreamed of.
oh, and by the way...
here is 300 miles to separate you.
maybe it's for the best...
if we can make it through this,
i think we can make the long haul.
i want the houseboat
i want the water dog
i want the boyfriend
i want milford! |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 23rd, 2007|10:48 pm] |
Today you felt so far away.
I just want someone to cuddle me.
I ruined my back, so i cant work out.
I just want to be with my boyfriend now.
I feel like hell, emotionally and physically.
I think that I'm going to go cry myself to sleep. |
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